i will no longer continue to write the story for a personal reason.
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you told him that you care and that you love him. you made him believe that his kisses were something you couldn't resist, his hugs felt like heaven and spending the time with him is the happiest time. you told him that he will be the one that you will marry and will spend the rest of your life with. you made some plans with him for the future and let him give you everything. it was going perfectly, everything was going well according to plan. times spent together and several exchange of i love you's were made. everyday, both of you would wake up happier than the other day because you know that you have each other. never in a million years you would think that you two would separate, that everything would end.
then one day, an unimaginable thing happened. everything changes. you've hurt him and left him. promises were broken and plans were never realized. he begged you not to go, you also did not want to go because you were not sure, if what you will be doing is the right thing to do if it is what you really wanted. but you stayed firm on your decision in leaving him. to have your freedom and find yourself again. but most of all, you left him because you were starting to like someone else. you already found yourself. you are already happy even if you are alone. but you realized that there is something missing. you've realized that all along, no matter how you deny it to yourself that you have already forgotten him, that you have already moved on, the truth is, you still love him and that you haven't totally moved on. there is still a part of you that wants him back. but it's too late. he has already moved on. he has somebody special now. you want to say that you are happy for him, that you will be happy if the two of them will end up together. but you can't. selfish it might be, but there is still that part of you wherein you wish that you could tell him that if only it could still be the two of you. that how you keep on wishing that it would still be you in his heart. but a part of you also wants to just move on. to forget everything. to forget him. but it's hard. but all you have no choice. part of loving a person is to get hurt. so you have to choose to get hurt than to hurt the person you love again. so let go, move on and one of these days, you'll no longer feel the pain.
Dear Bhe2x Jaybear,
for the nth time, i'm sorry. if only i could go back to that day that i have hurt you, i would. but sad to say, i can't. all i could do is to continue to live the life that i have chosen. believe me if i say that i love you and i always will. on this day on, my choice is to forget you, to let go of you. it's time for me really let go of you. to finally face the truth that we will no longer be together someday. painful as it is, but i really hope that you would finally meet the girl who will love you, who will always be there for you. goodbye bhe2x. i will always cherish the memories that we've shared. it's because of you that i am now a better person. i have learned so many things from you. for the last time, I'M SORRY AND I LOVE YOU.
channbear